Months has passed since i last wrote here.. Not gonna typically recap my life. As always, we win some we lose some and at times i feel as if im just going through it on autopilot mode. We’re still waiting for a blessing, and with further checks, its always very pressurising because everyone just wants to know. Why, i dont know but they just wanna poke their nose into Why,why,why. The thing that they miss is that i myself do not have the magical answer. Only Allah SWT knows. Time can never be replaced and the trickiest part of this is of course,time. I feel like we’re racing against a clock and now that it’s already May of the new year, the nerves are hitting more than ever. I am always waiting for a change but i guess life in Singapore will always be this stagnant. I want to understand why too i tend to always put off what i can do today to tomorrow. Its an unhealthy habit and i wonder if i am able to possess control over it. But some days when I get home from work, all i wanna do is veg out in front of the tv or immerse myself in conversations with my other half and mom. I am always too tired to do anything. And its frustrating when i get by another day where i dont slot in time to exercise or be closer to Allah SWT. And then i get depressed, winding up in a vicious cycle. :[

IT GETS REALLY FRUSTRATING WHEN SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME ANGRY KEEPS BEING REPEATED OVER & OVER! MY BACK IS ACHING, MY STOMACH IS STILL CRAMPING AND MY HEART IS JUST SWELLED UP WITH HURT!

Sometimes you cant blame a person for being jaded about so many things in this world.